realise...

from the day when my new life was coming,,,many things come to my mind...
sudden realise that...still got so many ppl dote on me...
i know i just not good enough for being a daughter or grandchild...
even i think that i'm not important to u-all...
but when the leaving day hve come...
what i can feel is my family really love me and dote me...
even the grandma so worry about me to live alone so far away...
when i've about to start my journey to come cyberjaya for 1st time...
inform and saying goodbye with grandma...
she seem like almost crying...make me feel so much like to cry also and vry sry to her...
start from that day when i was leaving my hometown...
i know that and i feel that there is lots of family member who vry care about me and help me all the times
although i know they were caring all the times but when the times really come into critical...
that kind of feeling really make me feel so much like to cry and so warmth...
at least i know that,,,there is someone who cares about me,dote on me and taking me serious...
there is what i've realise at the 1st...

after start my class of my 1st sem...
knowing some new friends...but all were not really recognise...==
coz mayb because of another friend of me so i recognise them...
if the friend of my didnt at here...maybe we just like the simple classmate...
not talking too much at all..
maybe i just too boring to chat with coz i really dun noe what to chat with ppl tat i not recognise...
but at least now i got new friends....although a few only...
what i've realised from this is that me is totally not important to any friend...
whether i presence or absence...no one will know this...maybe i just leaving without inform any ,they not will realise also...
friend have been place on a high rank in my heart been so long
but now,,,just seem like make me confuse about
are my friends really my friends?
although u-all just take me as transparency...at least i have all support from my family
that is nothing at all...
my family is the best strength for me to live and stay...
thx my family and i love u-all~~~