闷闷的，没什么想说话...
就想到这里来了...
这个blog,与其说是blog
倒不如说是让我发发牢骚的秘密天地
原因就在没人知道这里
也只有在这里我才能真真切切的写出我的心声
更多的是一时的气愤
有时候看回自己写的东西
有点觉得自己好像太over了
不过却都没删除
想把在这里所有的点滴当作是一种心情成长的记录
很多时候都是在一气之下写的啊...
真的还挺火爆的脾气...>.<
常常试着想改变自己，
却又是三分钟热度
说了就忘，常常看了有意思的文章
下一秒就忘了警惕自己的东西...
睡眠不足真的令人的记忆力大幅度的退化＝＝
明天又要回去了...
算是我最能把真实的自己展示出的地方？
又或者是最让我想太多地方
呆在那总是有千万种情绪...
太过情绪化了吧我...>.<
想太多，一切都是想太多
想太多总能让我的有着千思万绪
前一秒开心欢笑，下一秒却孤单万分
感觉自己不重要？
自己被抛弃不被理解？
一切都是想太多...
放不下，还是放不下所有的东西
无论是家人还是朋友
总想把他们都带在身边
却又是多么不可能的事
人人都有自己的生活自己的事要做啊
每人像我那么空闲...
唉...又是一缕哀声的叹息...>.<
2010年10月19日星期二
Have fun...^^
Soooooo tired today
and more accurately...so tired this few weeks...
after the 2nd semester was started,our gangs got activity on every week,,,==
celebrating birthday,eating,and today just went for ''Chiong K''~
It has been so long time din go sing K but today!
Sing many songs today and ok lah the atmosphere...
I think all have fun but quite tired while singing and crazying for about 4 or 5 hours...==
And today,one of the important day to be record in my life...
I have paid the deposit for my first ever Canon EOS DSLR camera...
although it's for study usage but finally I can own a camera myself
But it was expensive like hell!LOL...
Will get the camera by this Saturday and I hope every things goes smoothly and I can take good care about it...
Quite a burden for me to own a DSLR actually but it's for the studies so just let it be...
hope I can find my interest in photography soon....XD
and more accurately...so tired this few weeks...
after the 2nd semester was started,our gangs got activity on every week,,,==
celebrating birthday,eating,and today just went for ''Chiong K''~
It has been so long time din go sing K but today!
Sing many songs today and ok lah the atmosphere...
I think all have fun but quite tired while singing and crazying for about 4 or 5 hours...==
And today,one of the important day to be record in my life...
I have paid the deposit for my first ever Canon EOS DSLR camera...
although it's for study usage but finally I can own a camera myself
But it was expensive like hell!LOL...
Will get the camera by this Saturday and I hope every things goes smoothly and I can take good care about it...
Quite a burden for me to own a DSLR actually but it's for the studies so just let it be...
hope I can find my interest in photography soon....XD
2010年10月13日星期三
exhausted
So tired today...
finally settle down my new blog...
opened 2 new blog in three days...
but not for fun is for the coursework need...
damn tired doing this...
but luckily,,,I love blog than writing essay...
quite enjoy doing this and hope that it really work for me...
From now on, I have to write 4 blogs ...
although I have more than 4 blogs....>.<
but most of them didn't get my attention and some of them almost never be write...>.<
but this 4 blogs include this one are those I gonna manage it well
It record all my secret and feeling...
I would be busy like bee after this
aikzz....
Hope can get good rest and back to the right position of me...:)
finally settle down my new blog...
opened 2 new blog in three days...
but not for fun is for the coursework need...
damn tired doing this...
but luckily,,,I love blog than writing essay...
quite enjoy doing this and hope that it really work for me...
From now on, I have to write 4 blogs ...
although I have more than 4 blogs....>.<
but most of them didn't get my attention and some of them almost never be write...>.<
but this 4 blogs include this one are those I gonna manage it well
It record all my secret and feeling...
I would be busy like bee after this
aikzz....
Hope can get good rest and back to the right position of me...:)
2010年10月12日星期二
It was so boring...
It was too boring nowadays...
wondering what can I do...Bored till die...
It's always so free and boring when starting new semester but when it gonna end...
busy like hell...all assignment giving at same time...
Not got time to done it well also...
But now...damn free,,,
Don't know what can I do for now...
suppose to be more hard-work a bit...
but just seem like nothing can do...
aikzz....
Since we had saw almost all the lecturer and tutor, it just give me a feeling that this semester won;t be so easy to pass it well...
Especially computer graphics, a lecturer with Dr. and PhD.,sure not so easy to get over her...But , I think we can learn many things from her professional...
Starting two new blog this few days...
One is for the CG assignment group blog and one is for my own...^^
another blog...XD
Maybe it can be manage well and share it to other...
this one got too many secret so it just better being hidden all the times~
Didn't plan to share out the group blog at first because lecturer haven't ask us to do so
and I afraid that it will be copied by others...
but my group mate share it out on Facebook and now everyone SAW already...
I can't changes nothing already so just let it be...
I really don't like other ape anythings from mine...
So, you better don't do like that,,,
but all my group mate didn't have blog before and just start to use it and one of them copy all what I had put into the group blog to her blog already...>.<
Since she was the group member, I forgive her...
And now the blog is open to everyone already...
To prevent any plagiarist ,I need to find out more and more interesting and new things to make my blog different than others...
I just don't like be the same as other...
Good luck for me...=)
wondering what can I do...Bored till die...
It's always so free and boring when starting new semester but when it gonna end...
busy like hell...all assignment giving at same time...
Not got time to done it well also...
But now...damn free,,,
Don't know what can I do for now...
suppose to be more hard-work a bit...
but just seem like nothing can do...
aikzz....
Since we had saw almost all the lecturer and tutor, it just give me a feeling that this semester won;t be so easy to pass it well...
Especially computer graphics, a lecturer with Dr. and PhD.,sure not so easy to get over her...But , I think we can learn many things from her professional...
Starting two new blog this few days...
One is for the CG assignment group blog and one is for my own...^^
another blog...XD
Maybe it can be manage well and share it to other...
this one got too many secret so it just better being hidden all the times~
Didn't plan to share out the group blog at first because lecturer haven't ask us to do so
and I afraid that it will be copied by others...
but my group mate share it out on Facebook and now everyone SAW already...
I can't changes nothing already so just let it be...
I really don't like other ape anythings from mine...
So, you better don't do like that,,,
but all my group mate didn't have blog before and just start to use it and one of them copy all what I had put into the group blog to her blog already...>.<
Since she was the group member, I forgive her...
And now the blog is open to everyone already...
To prevent any plagiarist ,I need to find out more and more interesting and new things to make my blog different than others...
I just don't like be the same as other...
Good luck for me...=)
2010年9月6日星期一
here come the lazy bug...
stop for a week[?] for not update...
lazy again...lol
ok,,,summary this week...
1st,,,for what i'm doing when going back hometown...
actually spend whole my day with the cute cute baby...XD
xuanxuan not only know how to sing and dance sorry sorry+nobody...and lot of child song...he know how to sing ''对面的女孩看过来'',,,so cute nia...^^
he even go take the racket and turn it up and down to become a guitar for him to play...lol
what a cute 2 years old baby,,,ah yi so love u!!!^^
but now,,,xuanxuan know may words already,,,cant stop talking all the times...
superly noisy,,,haha...sometimes being ''shoot'' by his words...really great at talk back...>.<
the next things is....the common problem!
my dear 930 broke again when me and my bro bring along his girlfriend went to bukit jalil...
old master of our family ah...obedient sikit,k?
dont always has so many problem...fetch me back safely and smoothly can or not har?LOL...
this week,,,spend all my time for doing the mla assignment and vrc assessment...
lots of things need to do...and luckily...I finished all of that and submit all already,,,
really superly happy when all the coursework which left a long time with me had submitted!
and the most happy things was when the assessment day,lecturer say i can design also...
he quite like my sketch and design...he say nice design,,,i can design well....
woohoo....damn happy foe hearing that!
at least,,,I still got a bit talent that other can identify...>.<
quite relax after submit all the coursework and really free this few days,,,
spend all my times on fb only...especially bejeweled...XD
go KFC for dinner on friday, and found that there got a stall selling porridge,tongshui and snow ice!...finally i can find out a bit chinese cuisine here...T.T
and we went for it yesterday...XD,,,afte having dinner....go for the dessert,,,
but i think he put too much coconut milk...too sweet.....>。<
other quite ok...
that's all for this week i think...
nth special had happen...
just very very busy then very very free...swt...
almost finish my 1st trimester already...
so fast ah,.,,a bit scary for the time past so fast...
and quite no willing to pass it so fast....
a bit missing this sem...>.<
hope all will be fine the times after bah...
good luck to me and all my friends~
and one thins happen in this week is just there are a small and invincible changes between all the friends...
no only me and that 2ppl...but also between me and others and them with others...
but i think quite ok,,,at least not the bad things happen...
is just me and the girl gangs become quite close ad and them and some of the boys become quite close also...and all of us become merrier and closer...
the word closer is for many one but i think not for me and that one...
coz seem like quite long din chat and din talk much no matter when...
and he become very polite to me...that's the things that i cant get used...==
whatever how i putting a joke on him or what...he just smile only...
maybe coz of thr have other ppl in the situation or maybe long time we din gather...>.<
coz seem like we just found our own gangs ,,,and get closer toward it...
anyway...still ok lah...maybe is just about the time we get in the right place or maybe thr will be lot of misunderstanding happen....
but the chemistry quite weird between us...>.<
I am too over sensitive or wrong detect or really like that?
I'm not sure also...LOL
maybe confused by the horoscope...==
hope nth bad will happen lah...we r always friend...^^
lazy again...lol
ok,,,summary this week...
1st,,,for what i'm doing when going back hometown...
actually spend whole my day with the cute cute baby...XD
xuanxuan not only know how to sing and dance sorry sorry+nobody...and lot of child song...he know how to sing ''对面的女孩看过来'',,,so cute nia...^^
he even go take the racket and turn it up and down to become a guitar for him to play...lol
what a cute 2 years old baby,,,ah yi so love u!!!^^
but now,,,xuanxuan know may words already,,,cant stop talking all the times...
superly noisy,,,haha...sometimes being ''shoot'' by his words...really great at talk back...>.<
the next things is....the common problem!
my dear 930 broke again when me and my bro bring along his girlfriend went to bukit jalil...
old master of our family ah...obedient sikit,k?
dont always has so many problem...fetch me back safely and smoothly can or not har?LOL...
this week,,,spend all my time for doing the mla assignment and vrc assessment...
lots of things need to do...and luckily...I finished all of that and submit all already,,,
really superly happy when all the coursework which left a long time with me had submitted!
and the most happy things was when the assessment day,lecturer say i can design also...
he quite like my sketch and design...he say nice design,,,i can design well....
woohoo....damn happy foe hearing that!
at least,,,I still got a bit talent that other can identify...>.<
quite relax after submit all the coursework and really free this few days,,,
spend all my times on fb only...especially bejeweled...XD
go KFC for dinner on friday, and found that there got a stall selling porridge,tongshui and snow ice!...finally i can find out a bit chinese cuisine here...T.T
and we went for it yesterday...XD,,,afte having dinner....go for the dessert,,,
but i think he put too much coconut milk...too sweet.....>。<
other quite ok...
that's all for this week i think...
nth special had happen...
just very very busy then very very free...swt...
almost finish my 1st trimester already...
so fast ah,.,,a bit scary for the time past so fast...
and quite no willing to pass it so fast....
a bit missing this sem...>.<
hope all will be fine the times after bah...
good luck to me and all my friends~
and one thins happen in this week is just there are a small and invincible changes between all the friends...
no only me and that 2ppl...but also between me and others and them with others...
but i think quite ok,,,at least not the bad things happen...
is just me and the girl gangs become quite close ad and them and some of the boys become quite close also...and all of us become merrier and closer...
the word closer is for many one but i think not for me and that one...
coz seem like quite long din chat and din talk much no matter when...
and he become very polite to me...that's the things that i cant get used...==
whatever how i putting a joke on him or what...he just smile only...
maybe coz of thr have other ppl in the situation or maybe long time we din gather...>.<
coz seem like we just found our own gangs ,,,and get closer toward it...
anyway...still ok lah...maybe is just about the time we get in the right place or maybe thr will be lot of misunderstanding happen....
but the chemistry quite weird between us...>.<
I am too over sensitive or wrong detect or really like that?
I'm not sure also...LOL
maybe confused by the horoscope...==
hope nth bad will happen lah...we r always friend...^^
2010年8月24日星期二
self-introduction...XD
sudden feel so much like to post this out...XD
My self-introduction...>>>
ya ya...as u known...[if u know me in reality]
I just like to teasing ppl around...XD
Just try to be as naughty as I can or life will be too bored if all ppl are too obedient...I'm the special case...XD
Most of time is just kidding...if u get hurt from my words...
I'm sry coz I just want to say out what in my mind...
I just don't want to be too complicated...trying
But if you are really close enough with me, I'm sure you know what kind of ppl am I...and I'm sure you know most of the critic were just kidding...XD
Maybe u think i'm impolite...sry,that'
It is better for me to be like that than being affectation
If you cant accept this...just ignore me...I din ask to to pay attention on me also....>.<
and sometime...
I'm smile din mean that i'm happy and i din smile also not mean that i'm trouble or angry...
No one smile all the time ...if like this,his/her life will be vry tired...XD
sometime it just nth to display...everyone need his/her own space to rest and breathe also...
So,don't simply to guess what I'm thinking about...bcoz no one will noe except me---myself...
from above maybe u will think that I'm swagger...
yes!sure I am...but that is just my own way to live...the characteristic of my family...^^
my family just a bit extraordinary...and that's why we are special and many other think we are special too..>.<
I'm just like to persist in my own ways...Live out my own formula!
all of the ppl in this world nowadays is just too fake...
all live themselves under the same scheme they been giving...
why dont u be special a bit ?
arent life will be very bored if everyone is just like that?
The other things about me,I think i not need to talk much about this...
coz as u known...if U are following this blog...
I;m sure u noe....I'm just an emotional ppl...
I do my things and write any of my emotion as what I feel and what i thought right away...
sometime it would be really sad and emo...but sometime is just like really shine and optimistic...
that is me...unpredictable...multi-emotion ppl...XD...
I thought it is enough for you to know me as you finish reading this,,,
If u are now reading this...thx so much for pay attention on what I write...
and I hope this is enough for u-all to know what kind of ppl am I....XD
My self-introduction...>>>
ya ya...as u known...[if u know me in reality]
I just like to teasing ppl around...XD
Just try to be as naughty as I can or life will be too bored if all ppl are too obedient...I'm the special case...XD
Most of time is just kidding...if u get hurt from my words...
I'm sry coz I just want to say out what in my mind...
I just don't want to be too complicated...trying
But if you are really close enough with me, I'm sure you know what kind of ppl am I...and I'm sure you know most of the critic were just kidding...XD
Maybe u think i'm impolite...sry,that'
It is better for me to be like that than being affectation
If you cant accept this...just ignore me...I din ask to to pay attention on me also....>.<
and sometime...
I'm smile din mean that i'm happy and i din smile also not mean that i'm trouble or angry...
No one smile all the time ...if like this,his/her life will be vry tired...XD
sometime it just nth to display...everyone need his/her own space to rest and breathe also...
So,don't simply to guess what I'm thinking about...bcoz no one will noe except me---myself...
from above maybe u will think that I'm swagger...
yes!sure I am...but that is just my own way to live...the characteristic of my family...^^
my family just a bit extraordinary...and that's why we are special and many other think we are special too..>.<
I'm just like to persist in my own ways...Live out my own formula!
all of the ppl in this world nowadays is just too fake...
all live themselves under the same scheme they been giving...
why dont u be special a bit ?
arent life will be very bored if everyone is just like that?
The other things about me,I think i not need to talk much about this...
coz as u known...if U are following this blog...
I;m sure u noe....I'm just an emotional ppl...
I do my things and write any of my emotion as what I feel and what i thought right away...
sometime it would be really sad and emo...but sometime is just like really shine and optimistic...
that is me...unpredictable...multi-emotion ppl...XD...
I thought it is enough for you to know me as you finish reading this,,,
If u are now reading this...thx so much for pay attention on what I write...
and I hope this is enough for u-all to know what kind of ppl am I....XD
2010年7月28日星期三
farewell day...
真的好久没来更新了
不是没有内容更新
而是想说的话太多，懒得写出来...
这两个星期真的发生了很多事情
我的大学生涯啊，刚开始习惯，陪我一起来的朋友就说不想读了要回去了
退学手续都办好了，这星期就要离开了
过后的生活会是怎么样的呢？
还真不敢去想象...一个人的我要怎么过才好？
之前的心情真的是很复杂，很郁闷也很生气
气他为什么每次都是半路逃跑...
现在好多了...只是很担心接下来的四年要怎么的去过？
幸好我哥现在上来这里工作了，虽然有点距离，
但至少当有事情发生的时候，还有人可以救我 >.<
这几天的生活和心情变化很大
大到我有点分不清哪个是真哪个是假...
那些朋友呢，到底是真心的还是因为我还有利用价值才和我在一起的？
有时候觉得他们人很好，还很照顾我帮忙我...
可是有时候，从他们的谈话，眼神和行为...
又让我不禁怀疑朋友的价值和定义...
也许是我自以为我自己很了解他们
可是从头到尾，对他们一点都不熟悉...
毕竟，我也不知道他们原本是怎么样的人...
虽然才认识两个月，还蛮要好的
可是现在在一起时的气氛，心情和态度真的跟之前刚认识的时候差好多...
这之间的差别真的让我很好奇，他们到底有没有把我们当作真心的朋友来看待？
还是只是普通认识的朋友罢了？
也许是我们这些小地方来的人比较单纯也比较朴实吧
在大城市里的生活真的让人有压力...
每一个见面的人，你都不知道他真正的样子...
就算知道也未必就是那个你认识的他
有时候会以为自己很了解他们
可是有时候却也并非如此...
我是很真心的把他们当朋友
可是他们现在给我的感觉是，因为之前没有朋友所以认识了就会常在一起
可是现在他们开始熟悉了，也有了新的朋友
我们就再也不重要了
现在的我的存在只是一座临时搭建的桥梁...
用来连接他们两个男生和其他女生交朋友的联系
从中扮演翻译的角色...
似乎，当两组人马便熟悉了以后
我这座临时桥梁就会被抛弃了...
可能人真的很难去了解另外一个人
也很难去知道他们到底在想什么
所以才会那么的疑惑...
看着他们跟越来越多人要好时
是吃醋吗？还是心理不平衡？
我不知道...就是会有不好的感觉...
会有点不舒服不开心...
我不喜欢自己的东西被人抢走的感觉...
从以前就一直这样
我先认识的人，我先得到的东西
最后都是跟别人比较好或是被抢走...
可能以为这样所以会不喜欢他们去认识其他的人
可是who cares...who will care about how i feel?
现在的我只剩一个人,虽然又开始认识其他朋友
可是感觉上都会是不长久的
也许，慢慢的我会变回以前那个孤僻的我吧
就自己一个人静静的上课就好...
不需要朋友...
之前把朋友看的太重
现在的我只要有家人就好了
家人就是我的一切...
朋友之间的游戏，有点想退出了
不需要去争什么...就让你们去变要好吧
我想clear掉一些不必要的关系了...
也许自己过会更好...
今天帮要离开的朋友办了一个小型的同学聚会
至少让他不会有遗憾的回去
可是，并没有想象中的热闹
更没有想象中的好玩
一切都只有一个字可以形容－－－冷
其他人也许觉得很好玩...
可是对我和静来说，真的好闷噢...
还蛮失望的...
也许是把一切相想得太美好
所以当结果不能像想象中一样时就会很失望
也许一开始就不该期望，因为没有期望才不会失望
更不会受伤害...
可是还是一直的重复期望着会有什么不一样的东西发生
也许，命运就是爱作弄我吧...
这个星期以后就会是我一个人的生活了
会是怎么的一个样子呢？
连我自己都不敢去揣测...
当然会很害怕，但希望我可以很好的克服这一切
不要再把任何事情看的那么重了，
因为一切都不值得...
这里不是我们该存在的地方
大城市的人都是以自我为中心
也不会顾虑到别人感受的人
任何事都好像一定要有目的才可以去进行
连交朋友也一样...
这样的人好可怕...
难道一切就不能单纯点？
说的话一定要有含义？有暗示？
我不喜欢拐弯抹角
我所说的和我想说的都只是直接的表达我的想法
所以拜托你们不要想太多...
我的个性就是这样
我只是单纯的说我想说的东西罢了
也只是单纯的很爱玩，可以玩很疯
拜托不要误会我在接近你们＝＝
PS:今年真的不适合出门，是第几次了啊？车在半路有问题...星期天要回来这里时半路爆胎了...
现在都还没弄好呢，有点担心...
不是没有内容更新
而是想说的话太多，懒得写出来...
这两个星期真的发生了很多事情
我的大学生涯啊，刚开始习惯，陪我一起来的朋友就说不想读了要回去了
退学手续都办好了，这星期就要离开了
过后的生活会是怎么样的呢？
还真不敢去想象...一个人的我要怎么过才好？
之前的心情真的是很复杂，很郁闷也很生气
气他为什么每次都是半路逃跑...
现在好多了...只是很担心接下来的四年要怎么的去过？
幸好我哥现在上来这里工作了，虽然有点距离，
但至少当有事情发生的时候，还有人可以救我 >.<
这几天的生活和心情变化很大
大到我有点分不清哪个是真哪个是假...
那些朋友呢，到底是真心的还是因为我还有利用价值才和我在一起的？
有时候觉得他们人很好，还很照顾我帮忙我...
可是有时候，从他们的谈话，眼神和行为...
又让我不禁怀疑朋友的价值和定义...
也许是我自以为我自己很了解他们
可是从头到尾，对他们一点都不熟悉...
毕竟，我也不知道他们原本是怎么样的人...
虽然才认识两个月，还蛮要好的
可是现在在一起时的气氛，心情和态度真的跟之前刚认识的时候差好多...
这之间的差别真的让我很好奇，他们到底有没有把我们当作真心的朋友来看待？
还是只是普通认识的朋友罢了？
也许是我们这些小地方来的人比较单纯也比较朴实吧
在大城市里的生活真的让人有压力...
每一个见面的人，你都不知道他真正的样子...
就算知道也未必就是那个你认识的他
有时候会以为自己很了解他们
可是有时候却也并非如此...
我是很真心的把他们当朋友
可是他们现在给我的感觉是，因为之前没有朋友所以认识了就会常在一起
可是现在他们开始熟悉了，也有了新的朋友
我们就再也不重要了
现在的我的存在只是一座临时搭建的桥梁...
用来连接他们两个男生和其他女生交朋友的联系
从中扮演翻译的角色...
似乎，当两组人马便熟悉了以后
我这座临时桥梁就会被抛弃了...
可能人真的很难去了解另外一个人
也很难去知道他们到底在想什么
所以才会那么的疑惑...
看着他们跟越来越多人要好时
是吃醋吗？还是心理不平衡？
我不知道...就是会有不好的感觉...
会有点不舒服不开心...
我不喜欢自己的东西被人抢走的感觉...
从以前就一直这样
我先认识的人，我先得到的东西
最后都是跟别人比较好或是被抢走...
可能以为这样所以会不喜欢他们去认识其他的人
可是who cares...who will care about how i feel?
现在的我只剩一个人,虽然又开始认识其他朋友
可是感觉上都会是不长久的
也许，慢慢的我会变回以前那个孤僻的我吧
就自己一个人静静的上课就好...
不需要朋友...
之前把朋友看的太重
现在的我只要有家人就好了
家人就是我的一切...
朋友之间的游戏，有点想退出了
不需要去争什么...就让你们去变要好吧
我想clear掉一些不必要的关系了...
也许自己过会更好...
今天帮要离开的朋友办了一个小型的同学聚会
至少让他不会有遗憾的回去
可是，并没有想象中的热闹
更没有想象中的好玩
一切都只有一个字可以形容－－－冷
其他人也许觉得很好玩...
可是对我和静来说，真的好闷噢...
还蛮失望的...
也许是把一切相想得太美好
所以当结果不能像想象中一样时就会很失望
也许一开始就不该期望，因为没有期望才不会失望
更不会受伤害...
可是还是一直的重复期望着会有什么不一样的东西发生
也许，命运就是爱作弄我吧...
这个星期以后就会是我一个人的生活了
会是怎么的一个样子呢？
连我自己都不敢去揣测...
当然会很害怕，但希望我可以很好的克服这一切
不要再把任何事情看的那么重了，
因为一切都不值得...
这里不是我们该存在的地方
大城市的人都是以自我为中心
也不会顾虑到别人感受的人
任何事都好像一定要有目的才可以去进行
连交朋友也一样...
这样的人好可怕...
难道一切就不能单纯点？
说的话一定要有含义？有暗示？
我不喜欢拐弯抹角
我所说的和我想说的都只是直接的表达我的想法
所以拜托你们不要想太多...
我的个性就是这样
我只是单纯的说我想说的东西罢了
也只是单纯的很爱玩，可以玩很疯
拜托不要误会我在接近你们＝＝
PS:今年真的不适合出门，是第几次了啊？车在半路有问题...星期天要回来这里时半路爆胎了...
现在都还没弄好呢，有点担心...
2010年7月9日星期五
going back home 2moro...
2moro is going back home...'need to wake up early and bring so much things back and bring back more after 2 days...
so sienz when thinking of this...
3 week din back to home...but just seem like not so long time..
actually dun know what should do after getting home...
some of my frenz keep asking me why i back to home so frequently?
arent that nothing for us to come back home...==
what i thought when everytime hearing this is only...sweat...=___=''
should we have any reason then just can back to home?
mayb we share the different view or values...
it just like a routine for me going back home 2 or 3 week once...
although nth to do...just back to visit my family,my grandma,my nephew,...and so on....
but quite tired when thinking about the journey back to home...T^T
good luck for me...hope i can back to home safely and comfortably...
hope i can done some of my homework when at home too...^^...XD
so sienz when thinking of this...
3 week din back to home...but just seem like not so long time..
actually dun know what should do after getting home...
some of my frenz keep asking me why i back to home so frequently?
arent that nothing for us to come back home...==
what i thought when everytime hearing this is only...sweat...=___=''
should we have any reason then just can back to home?
mayb we share the different view or values...
it just like a routine for me going back home 2 or 3 week once...
although nth to do...just back to visit my family,my grandma,my nephew,...and so on....
but quite tired when thinking about the journey back to home...T^T
good luck for me...hope i can back to home safely and comfortably...
hope i can done some of my homework when at home too...^^...XD
2010年6月26日星期六
bored....
nth much to say actually...
just felt vry bored bored and bored...
fb also not hve any interesting things...
so sienz...
today went for a movie in IOI puchong...
no bad 3D movie...Toy Story 3...
make me so missing my nephew...
but vry unlucky and no mood for today...
order a drink and even still havent drink any...
spill it out all and almost broke the cup...==
and no later than that...my handphone drop to the floor
and cant switch on...
really moody for this...
so scare that sudden so unlucky ,maybe my family got something wrong happen?
coz las time when i feel like that also...
my bro crashing his car with the car in front who sudden stop at the road...
and on that day also...my dad's car being pry by someone and a few hundred hve been stolen...
so when those happen today...sure i was vry worry...
luckily,,,until now...not got any bad news....
just not feeling well through the day...
seem like something wrong...but dun know what is it...
maybe a bit tired....
din take photo with my frenz today...
dun noe when can it be done...
many assignment and homework waiting for me now...
but so lazy to do that...
dun noe y i bcum dependent and cant study seriously...
feel so much like to play around only but not for study...
will i pass the final exam for the 1st sem?
if cant?what should i do and wat can i do?
so worry and scary now...
2010年6月11日星期五
不要轻易的相信任何人...
我只想说，这是我上来读书最常听到的一句话
很多人都说，不要轻易的相信其他人，因为你不知道他心里到底怎么想
虽然是很想放下戒心的交朋友，也不免会担心---现在的你是真的你吗？
人总是多面的，没有人能毫无隐藏的展示出自己最真实的一面
即时最单纯的人也会被天使守护着...
天使不会让他受伤害所以不会让他展示出自己的天真
人总是虚伪的...
世界上最伟大的人不是什么大发明家还是大艺术家
而是能真真正正展示出自己的人
勇于展示自己的人，往往都是最终的生存者
然而，生存背后的勇气也必须要异于常人才行...
我...
我承认我是虚伪的...
虚伪到连我自己也看不清我自己...
没有人认识真正的我，因为我自己也不认识
也许是在最受伤的那时候不见了自己吧...
别以为我是为了感情而受伤，为感情而迷失自己的人最愚蠢
有时候再坚强的人背后，往往有着比别人更深的烙印
印下只有自己才知道的暗号...
偶尔的反复想起...弯弯的眼角也会下起雨来...
我喜欢在夜深人静时思考，不是因为习惯
而是因为只有在夜深人静时，我才看得见我自己...
一个有血有肉有心跳的我...
我爱哭，可是我并不常在别人面前哭
不是因为巧合，而是因为我选择强忍着泪水，
不让别人发现我最软弱的一面...
那时我唯一可以保留的尊严...
至少，别人知道我害怕，可是没人知道我在哭...
又或许是因为没有可以让我在他面前放心哭的人...
我还找不到那个依靠的肩膀...
不了解我的人，你要怎么说我，怎么批评我都可以
可是你不是我...你不知道我的想法
你不知道我的恐惧，你不知道我的遭遇
你更不知道我受过的阴影...
所以，在你对任何一个人下定论前，请先想清楚
你对他有多了解...
人--是有感情的动物
然而人也是最残忍的动物
人类会利用任何一方的同情心和弱点去使另一个人改变
这就是所谓的万物之灵?
还是我们也只是一种动物...愚蠢的动物...
天真的人，往往都比较受人喜爱
而他们也是最容易被伤害的一群...
有的人，外表看上去很坚强很强势
可是，内在里却十分的软弱
那时因为害怕，因为害怕被别人看穿自己的软弱所以我们选择伪装
伪装是保护自己最好的武器...
外表越是坚强的人，背后也一定有着越是坎坷的路程
而往往总是心事重重的人，
都得不到大家的注意...
常常紧锁着的眉头，
不因为压力而是因为得不到赞同还是他们害怕被认同？
不要轻易的相信任何人...
因为每个人都是以最佳的姿态去面对人群
而亮丽的背后总有不为人知的一面...
珍惜真正关心你的人，
不知是那些虚情假意，阿谀奉承的猪朋狗友
也包括常在耳边唠叨，会责骂你，鞭策你的人
因为他们才是真正关心你的人...
很多人都说，不要轻易的相信其他人，因为你不知道他心里到底怎么想
虽然是很想放下戒心的交朋友，也不免会担心---现在的你是真的你吗？
人总是多面的，没有人能毫无隐藏的展示出自己最真实的一面
即时最单纯的人也会被天使守护着...
天使不会让他受伤害所以不会让他展示出自己的天真
人总是虚伪的...
世界上最伟大的人不是什么大发明家还是大艺术家
而是能真真正正展示出自己的人
勇于展示自己的人，往往都是最终的生存者
然而，生存背后的勇气也必须要异于常人才行...
我...
我承认我是虚伪的...
虚伪到连我自己也看不清我自己...
没有人认识真正的我，因为我自己也不认识
也许是在最受伤的那时候不见了自己吧...
别以为我是为了感情而受伤，为感情而迷失自己的人最愚蠢
有时候再坚强的人背后，往往有着比别人更深的烙印
印下只有自己才知道的暗号...
偶尔的反复想起...弯弯的眼角也会下起雨来...
我喜欢在夜深人静时思考，不是因为习惯
而是因为只有在夜深人静时，我才看得见我自己...
一个有血有肉有心跳的我...
我爱哭，可是我并不常在别人面前哭
不是因为巧合，而是因为我选择强忍着泪水，
不让别人发现我最软弱的一面...
那时我唯一可以保留的尊严...
至少，别人知道我害怕，可是没人知道我在哭...
又或许是因为没有可以让我在他面前放心哭的人...
我还找不到那个依靠的肩膀...
不了解我的人，你要怎么说我，怎么批评我都可以
可是你不是我...你不知道我的想法
你不知道我的恐惧，你不知道我的遭遇
你更不知道我受过的阴影...
所以，在你对任何一个人下定论前，请先想清楚
你对他有多了解...
人--是有感情的动物
然而人也是最残忍的动物
人类会利用任何一方的同情心和弱点去使另一个人改变
这就是所谓的万物之灵?
还是我们也只是一种动物...愚蠢的动物...
天真的人，往往都比较受人喜爱
而他们也是最容易被伤害的一群...
有的人，外表看上去很坚强很强势
可是，内在里却十分的软弱
那时因为害怕，因为害怕被别人看穿自己的软弱所以我们选择伪装
伪装是保护自己最好的武器...
外表越是坚强的人，背后也一定有着越是坎坷的路程
而往往总是心事重重的人，
都得不到大家的注意...
常常紧锁着的眉头，
不因为压力而是因为得不到赞同还是他们害怕被认同？
不要轻易的相信任何人...
因为每个人都是以最佳的姿态去面对人群
而亮丽的背后总有不为人知的一面...
珍惜真正关心你的人，
不知是那些虚情假意，阿谀奉承的猪朋狗友
也包括常在耳边唠叨，会责骂你，鞭策你的人
因为他们才是真正关心你的人...
2010年3月2日星期二
3月2日 阴晴不定
不知不觉就到三月了~
时间真的过得很快...而我
也已经有好几天没来更新了~
呵呵...懒人病又犯了~
今年啊~过了个是罪与以往不同的新年
可是还是一样的闷啊~
年初一,像往常一样去了婆婆家,只不过今年没在那里待上整天...
年初二,也失去了婆婆家吃饭,中午就回家看戏吹冷气,晚上是第一次没去婆婆家吃饭,而是一家人到外面去吃了~终于啊~可以吃不一样的东西了...晚上一家人玩牌,输的人喝一杯酒= =
年初三,好像都没过到去婆婆家~[PS:每年过年就只有得去婆婆家啊~]晚会上那就和朋友们bbq~^^
接下来的每一天,就是去玩耍~玩牌,去batu pahat吃mum mum,gai gai...就一直这样到过完年
虽然与每年不同,也去了蛮多地方...可是还是一样的闷...不知道为什么
越长大,越没有过新年的feel...
就像今年一样,到现在好像都没过年一样...aikzz...
最近呢,还是跟以前一样无所事事...
可是脾气好像又变差了点=_____=这也不是我想要的啊~
三月了,代表成绩要出了,可是却没确定的时间
三月了,代表当兵的朋友要出来了而我也可能要进去了...
真的不想去当兵,可是却还不知道我到底应该去读什么好...
现在报名的话也来不及了吧?
能不能就直接不要进去?
这几天,突然很想念以前的日子...
那个老是在学校到处跑帮忙老师卖书和推销升学展的那个红裙小女生
那个每天有着规律的课程要上
每天有固定的功课,忙到喘不过气来的那个生活
可从前,却是那么样的讨厌啊...
现在竟然会很想念那些功课...
还是比较喜欢那样一直做功课可是学到很多东西的生活
好久没碰我最喜欢也最讨厌的add-math了...
都不知道还会不会做...每个星期二的补习...
好久没去面包店哦~哈哈...因为啊~
以前一补习,大伙就会跑去面包店买面包~
一边补习一边吃~一边补习一边和老师聊天~
好怀念以前的生活...
不懂事,莽莽撞撞的我...的生活....好想念哦..
要怎么才能回到以前的生活呢?
人啊~真的是要等到过了以后才会珍惜^^
真希望我接下来的生活能顺心顺利的一直过下去~
祝福我吧~朋友...^^
时间真的过得很快...而我
也已经有好几天没来更新了~
呵呵...懒人病又犯了~
今年啊~过了个是罪与以往不同的新年
可是还是一样的闷啊~
年初一,像往常一样去了婆婆家,只不过今年没在那里待上整天...
年初二,也失去了婆婆家吃饭,中午就回家看戏吹冷气,晚上是第一次没去婆婆家吃饭,而是一家人到外面去吃了~终于啊~可以吃不一样的东西了...晚上一家人玩牌,输的人喝一杯酒= =
年初三,好像都没过到去婆婆家~[PS:每年过年就只有得去婆婆家啊~]晚会上那就和朋友们bbq~^^
接下来的每一天,就是去玩耍~玩牌,去batu pahat吃mum mum,gai gai...就一直这样到过完年
虽然与每年不同,也去了蛮多地方...可是还是一样的闷...不知道为什么
越长大,越没有过新年的feel...
就像今年一样,到现在好像都没过年一样...aikzz...
最近呢,还是跟以前一样无所事事...
可是脾气好像又变差了点=_____=这也不是我想要的啊~
三月了,代表成绩要出了,可是却没确定的时间
三月了,代表当兵的朋友要出来了而我也可能要进去了...
真的不想去当兵,可是却还不知道我到底应该去读什么好...
现在报名的话也来不及了吧?
能不能就直接不要进去?
这几天,突然很想念以前的日子...
那个老是在学校到处跑帮忙老师卖书和推销升学展的那个红裙小女生
那个每天有着规律的课程要上
每天有固定的功课,忙到喘不过气来的那个生活
可从前,却是那么样的讨厌啊...
现在竟然会很想念那些功课...
还是比较喜欢那样一直做功课可是学到很多东西的生活
好久没碰我最喜欢也最讨厌的add-math了...
都不知道还会不会做...每个星期二的补习...
好久没去面包店哦~哈哈...因为啊~
以前一补习,大伙就会跑去面包店买面包~
一边补习一边吃~一边补习一边和老师聊天~
好怀念以前的生活...
不懂事,莽莽撞撞的我...的生活....好想念哦..
要怎么才能回到以前的生活呢?
人啊~真的是要等到过了以后才会珍惜^^
真希望我接下来的生活能顺心顺利的一直过下去~
祝福我吧~朋友...^^
2010年1月30日星期六
Oh o~
1月30日 晴
现在~听着神起的歌...上着fb...
可是却不懂要干嘛...
没事做~这几天都一直那样~
不懂要做什么...竟然连上网都会没事干...
一半是因为神起最近都没什么活动吧...
题目放oh o~是''噢哦~''的发音。。。
因为最近来懒得更新了~
哈哈~我的部落格通病~
都是开了懒惰更新...
不过这个算很好了~哈哈
只是最近没事情发生所以没得更新= =
刚收到一封正在当兵朋友的信息...好想念他们~
只能期待过年见啦！~
还有就是~我不要去当兵~
救命啊~谁可以救我？哈哈。。。
现在播着的歌是''千年恋歌''~
一首我很喜欢的歌~很浪漫的歌~
也是很好听的歌~
基本上~只要是神起的歌我都喜欢！~ ^00^
晚上都不会睡啊~该怎么办才好？
现在~听着神起的歌...上着fb...
可是却不懂要干嘛...
没事做~这几天都一直那样~
不懂要做什么...竟然连上网都会没事干...
一半是因为神起最近都没什么活动吧...
题目放oh o~是''噢哦~''的发音。。。
因为最近来懒得更新了~
哈哈~我的部落格通病~
都是开了懒惰更新...
不过这个算很好了~哈哈
只是最近没事情发生所以没得更新= =
刚收到一封正在当兵朋友的信息...好想念他们~
只能期待过年见啦！~
还有就是~我不要去当兵~
救命啊~谁可以救我？哈哈。。。
现在播着的歌是''千年恋歌''~
一首我很喜欢的歌~很浪漫的歌~
也是很好听的歌~
基本上~只要是神起的歌我都喜欢！~ ^00^
晚上都不会睡啊~该怎么办才好？
2010年1月25日星期一
Finally...
24/01/2010 sunny day
Finally, I've make up my decision for the further study that should I take...
I will take the course of Communication (Marketing Communication) (Hons)
or Visual Communication or Graphic Communication Design or Marketing...
I haven choose the college or Uni that I will intake
but the most important and biggest problem is the course fee...
all of the courses above is sooo~~''INexpensive'' [antonym]...XD
the cheapest one is Marketing,RM3????, but Marketing is the course that I more likely not will take...>.<
the other is about RM5???? not include the normal living expenses...
How could a normal single-parent families with a haven graduate college student afford the expenses?
Even if I can apply for the PTPTN ,but it also cant ensure that it is enough for the course fee...
and still have the living and accommodation expenses...haiz...
So trouble...scholarships?I think it not will left any places for the ppl like me = =
Put aside all the things...
anyone can give some opinion for me due to the courses about or any recommend college or Uni?
thx first for any comment...
Finally, I've make up my decision for the further study that should I take...
I will take the course of Communication (Marketing Communication) (Hons)
or Visual Communication or Graphic Communication Design or Marketing...
I haven choose the college or Uni that I will intake
but the most important and biggest problem is the course fee...
all of the courses above is sooo~~''INexpensive'' [antonym]...XD
the cheapest one is Marketing,RM3????, but Marketing is the course that I more likely not will take...>.<
the other is about RM5???? not include the normal living expenses...
How could a normal single-parent families with a haven graduate college student afford the expenses?
Even if I can apply for the PTPTN ,but it also cant ensure that it is enough for the course fee...
and still have the living and accommodation expenses...haiz...
So trouble...scholarships?I think it not will left any places for the ppl like me = =
Put aside all the things...
anyone can give some opinion for me due to the courses about or any recommend college or Uni?
thx first for any comment...
2010年1月21日星期四
_Tod@y_
21/01/2010 sunny day
sorry for no online for so much day...
coz my pc have a bit problem so it cant open either go into windows
haven repair...dun noe also why it sudden can open = =
a bit tired tis few day...and also bored
but luckily I have passed my Undang-undang Jalanraya exam
and will start to learn driving but dun noe when...>.<
no much thing i want to say...coz no much thing i done tis few day...
Now, the next thing I need to focus with is which course and college/Uni should I choose...
I've decide to go on further study as late as before I've been calling for PLKN
Most possible I will go on my college or Uni life on the middle of March...
Nothing want to ask now...just wishing me good luck...^^
sorry for no online for so much day...
coz my pc have a bit problem so it cant open either go into windows
haven repair...dun noe also why it sudden can open = =
a bit tired tis few day...and also bored
but luckily I have passed my Undang-undang Jalanraya exam
and will start to learn driving but dun noe when...>.<
no much thing i want to say...coz no much thing i done tis few day...
Now, the next thing I need to focus with is which course and college/Uni should I choose...
I've decide to go on further study as late as before I've been calling for PLKN
Most possible I will go on my college or Uni life on the middle of March...
Nothing want to ask now...just wishing me good luck...^^
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