expect?no...

countdown-ing my birthday...
still got 7 days to go...
but the feeling keep come toward me is just scary...
keep remid myself that don't expect too much on it...
because no one will remember it...
if they remember or they know that that day is my birthday
the most i will get is also only a happy birthday greeting...
maybe I just cant let it go...
really hope that have someone or somebody can celebrate with me
and giving me present,,,
but it never happen...
that is not a tradition for my family to celebrate birthday...
so...never have expection from there...
but friends,,,just always didnt take it serious...
it was said we are good friend or best friends or whatever...
but I'm just that who always being forgetted one...
what kind of life does I have...
never,,,not seem like never,,is really never have anyone celebrate with me...
the DAY keep coming closer,and I'm getting more and more emo...
really hope that i can totally forget that day...
it is better for me to take it just like a simple day than my birthday...
present...i really like it,,,no matter what u give me...
the most important things for me is just the intention or more in more proper saying...
the appretiation of u-all toward me...
keep asking myself dont expect too much and dont have any expection...
but dunno why it just keep appearing on my mind,,,==
haiz,,,,